so i guess saturday night, sunday night and monday night all happened to lead me to feeling like this.
for a while it felt as if i was on a high part of a roller coaster, and it took a steep dive to the bottom where i fell face first into the ground. but i think this may not necessarily be the case.
like my facebook says, things happen that lead to other things that are meant to happen. it was a rocky start to my day. i woke up an hour early because my alarm sucked. in period 1 today my phone got confiscated. i'll get told off for sure, but it doesn't bother me. the teacher was having mood swings, chucking me and jess dirties as we silently conversed, so we wrote in my black leather diary. ooft the funny thing was she would chuck us dirties when we would write about her. like i care. hey, it was study period and term just started. as if we would have work to do.
then assembly came. i sneaked into a homeroom i shouldn't and was almost caught. lucky i perfected the sneak ways last saturday night, when i got into an 18+ bar to watch a mate's gig, and my license was checked twice. i sat next to this girl (people in my school know who i'm talking about) who is tall, lanky, wears glasses, has bed hair all the time and likes goth music. yeh. she wouldn't shut up. she thought the intro music senior leaders were walking into sounded like "happy vampire music". OK. then at the end of the assembly the vice got up and said "we should be pro active in the way we behave" and this girl says "just run and die"
BAHAHHAHAHAHHAH OMG that made me laugh so hard i would have probably been chucked a dirty at by the vice. LOL. that still makes me laugh as i think about it.
and then english came. must i say that my *new* teacher is interesting. our topic for HSC is "belonging" and because i live a sad life i decided to count how much she said the word in a period of one hour. she said it 97+ times. whoa. felysha counted how much she said "SHUUSHHH" and it led to about 36 times. yes i know. we're saaad.
and then textiles. LOL. we got our results back, and i didn't do as badly as i thought i would have. the teacher mustave been happy when she marked my dress, because it like sucked. LOL. doesn't even fit properly. and i got mastering for the second semester!! yayyayyyyyy. she then asked a question and i was the only one that answered. her thankfulness was shown by the line "thank you for having some sanity." LOL
now see how it gets happier at the end? that was what it was like today. like a crazy roller coaster. i figured out many many things today, some which will be left unmentioned because they will probably harm me if people who i don't want reading it miraculously manage to source this blog. i just neeed to vent out these emotions.
lotsalove ♥ shakitty
Tuesday, October 14, 2008
Wednesday, October 8, 2008
episode 4: KOL
so yesterday 3 of us went parra. i have no idea why or how we got so tired but we did.
me and marinasan got there at 9 to buy jess a present, and we bought her this teddy bear from myer LOL. when jess was about to open it we told her it was feisty lingerie. i think she was a tad disappointed it wasn't LOL. this was at borders, and we had to sit in the kids area cuz there wasnt a table for old ppl. so there we were sitting on chairs too small for us and marina picks up a wall-e book. and it has buttons that make noises.
BAHAHHAHAHA
one of the noises was like a gun shooting so we were shooting each other with it. yep that's how we roll. LOL. we then watched step brothers. hilarious. yet disgusting. luckily tickets were only 10 bux because it was tuesday!! woot!!
after the movie we went to max brenners (gahhh) and jess ordered a chocolate souffle. the first thing she said was "it's tiny" and considering she paid almost 10 bux for it the souffle seemed like a rip off. but let me tell you. it was delicious!! so thick and creamy and when the centre was reached chocolte came oozing out of it. gahhhh and my hot chocolate. it was in a mug that looked like an egg and then it was like dark chocolate in a cup. yuum
then we went to the bathroom but stopped at a music store because marina wanted a band tee. but what i found was the KINGS OF LEON album, ONLY BY THE NIGHT. when i opened the paper cover thingy there was a pic of JARED the cutest king. gahhh
that night as we went home i listened to them in the car and my mum was like WHAT? what is this?! LOL. and that night as i sewed a dress i listened to it and fell in love. my faves so far are "use somebody", "manhattan", "sex on fire", "17", and "revelry". i owe my mother $25 but it was totally worth it. it's been the first CD i've bought in almost 5 years and let me tell you it's probably the best one in my collection.
and last night i couldn't stop listening to it. i eventually fell asleep to it and that is what i like with music. it has to be upbeat, but so awesome that i can fall asleep to it. when i have music like that it's when i've truly fallen in love with the sound. and this morning i played it again. i can wake up to KOL and fall asleep to them as well. seriously one of my top 3 bands ever.
atm the top 3 is:
1) Kings Of Leon
2) MGMT
3) Arctic Monkeys
and yeh pretty excited for saturday night already!! i think im gnna see a mate's band and yeh they're pretty awesome. plus apparently other local indie bands playing that night so should be awesome. check out the band at myspace.com/archersaus
lotsalove, shakitty
me and marinasan got there at 9 to buy jess a present, and we bought her this teddy bear from myer LOL. when jess was about to open it we told her it was feisty lingerie. i think she was a tad disappointed it wasn't LOL. this was at borders, and we had to sit in the kids area cuz there wasnt a table for old ppl. so there we were sitting on chairs too small for us and marina picks up a wall-e book. and it has buttons that make noises.
BAHAHHAHAHA
one of the noises was like a gun shooting so we were shooting each other with it. yep that's how we roll. LOL. we then watched step brothers. hilarious. yet disgusting. luckily tickets were only 10 bux because it was tuesday!! woot!!
after the movie we went to max brenners (gahhh) and jess ordered a chocolate souffle. the first thing she said was "it's tiny" and considering she paid almost 10 bux for it the souffle seemed like a rip off. but let me tell you. it was delicious!! so thick and creamy and when the centre was reached chocolte came oozing out of it. gahhhh and my hot chocolate. it was in a mug that looked like an egg and then it was like dark chocolate in a cup. yuum
then we went to the bathroom but stopped at a music store because marina wanted a band tee. but what i found was the KINGS OF LEON album, ONLY BY THE NIGHT. when i opened the paper cover thingy there was a pic of JARED the cutest king. gahhh
that night as we went home i listened to them in the car and my mum was like WHAT? what is this?! LOL. and that night as i sewed a dress i listened to it and fell in love. my faves so far are "use somebody", "manhattan", "sex on fire", "17", and "revelry". i owe my mother $25 but it was totally worth it. it's been the first CD i've bought in almost 5 years and let me tell you it's probably the best one in my collection.
and last night i couldn't stop listening to it. i eventually fell asleep to it and that is what i like with music. it has to be upbeat, but so awesome that i can fall asleep to it. when i have music like that it's when i've truly fallen in love with the sound. and this morning i played it again. i can wake up to KOL and fall asleep to them as well. seriously one of my top 3 bands ever.
atm the top 3 is:
1) Kings Of Leon
2) MGMT
3) Arctic Monkeys
and yeh pretty excited for saturday night already!! i think im gnna see a mate's band and yeh they're pretty awesome. plus apparently other local indie bands playing that night so should be awesome. check out the band at myspace.com/archersaus
lotsalove, shakitty
Monday, October 6, 2008
episode 3: bright red
monday. october 6, 2008.
JESSICA'S 18!!!
woww now we have someone to take us places!! whee!! heheheh
today was shopping day for me. i havent gone for so long and i was craving to buy some clothes!! even if liverpool is the hole it is, it provides me with market prices on clothes i know i'll wear for about one season then donate to vinnies. i found this dress i tried on last week. it's bright red, and tulip shaped. the cutest thing ever!! but it gives me too much shape and since i'm curvy enough already i loooked like mary poppins. so i didn't buy it.
then i went to this shop that opened like 2 weeks ago. it's called joanne and it has pretty rad stuff. i got a blue top with frills which was like 6 bux!! then a chambray denim shirt which has a hood which is totally rad !!! then yeh went cabra to buy material. $4 but will look like its worth more. i promise. hopefully i'll finish it this week. i'll take a pic later.
and yeh today wasn't so special for me but hopefully tomorrow will be funner.
cookies, shakitty
JESSICA'S 18!!!
woww now we have someone to take us places!! whee!! heheheh
today was shopping day for me. i havent gone for so long and i was craving to buy some clothes!! even if liverpool is the hole it is, it provides me with market prices on clothes i know i'll wear for about one season then donate to vinnies. i found this dress i tried on last week. it's bright red, and tulip shaped. the cutest thing ever!! but it gives me too much shape and since i'm curvy enough already i loooked like mary poppins. so i didn't buy it.
then i went to this shop that opened like 2 weeks ago. it's called joanne and it has pretty rad stuff. i got a blue top with frills which was like 6 bux!! then a chambray denim shirt which has a hood which is totally rad !!! then yeh went cabra to buy material. $4 but will look like its worth more. i promise. hopefully i'll finish it this week. i'll take a pic later.
and yeh today wasn't so special for me but hopefully tomorrow will be funner.
cookies, shakitty
Sunday, October 5, 2008
episode 2: PUSH
this weekend i have been pushed like never before. i was chosen to lead a youth camp. simple? don't judge it. trust me, its preparation, ensuring there are no awkward silences when presenting, and keeping everybody focused. running around is a constant requirement and of course bonding with people you've never met.
i was pushed outside of my personal boundaries and i couldn't have been more challenged. i felt like i was being a cow when i kept telling people to do something. trust me it wasn't fun feeling that way. but at the end of the day someone has to do the job and raise the standard that is there.
because it began on saturday instead of the usual friday evening, it was a challenge to get participants there, because it's so simple for them to shrug it off rather than the committment that the service team has promised. one of them even logically considered to cancel the camp, but we decided to be strong and continue the battle we had began.
9.00 and 2 girls came. you cannot understand the happiness i felt when my dad called my name because now we had a purpose. we had the drive to move forward. with these girls, 3 of their other friends decided to tag along and just stay for a small part of the camp.
that afternoon murderwink was the game everyone was playing in a large circle outside the campsite. met me tell you, tim is one fella who knows how to kill in this game. as the day continued our variety night was full of variety. we had no skits, music or anything prepared. everything was IMPROVISATION.
this is just a snapshot. of course like reality shows much more happened than explained on this blog. this episode was written just because i wanted to prove that if you PUSH, something will happen. you will increase your personal standards, expand your boundaries and of course better yourself as a person.
Pray Until Something Happens. P.U.S.H.
chocolates, shakitty.
ps. listen to THE POLO CLUB- alone running home.
i was pushed outside of my personal boundaries and i couldn't have been more challenged. i felt like i was being a cow when i kept telling people to do something. trust me it wasn't fun feeling that way. but at the end of the day someone has to do the job and raise the standard that is there.
because it began on saturday instead of the usual friday evening, it was a challenge to get participants there, because it's so simple for them to shrug it off rather than the committment that the service team has promised. one of them even logically considered to cancel the camp, but we decided to be strong and continue the battle we had began.
9.00 and 2 girls came. you cannot understand the happiness i felt when my dad called my name because now we had a purpose. we had the drive to move forward. with these girls, 3 of their other friends decided to tag along and just stay for a small part of the camp.
that afternoon murderwink was the game everyone was playing in a large circle outside the campsite. met me tell you, tim is one fella who knows how to kill in this game. as the day continued our variety night was full of variety. we had no skits, music or anything prepared. everything was IMPROVISATION.
this is just a snapshot. of course like reality shows much more happened than explained on this blog. this episode was written just because i wanted to prove that if you PUSH, something will happen. you will increase your personal standards, expand your boundaries and of course better yourself as a person.
Pray Until Something Happens. P.U.S.H.
chocolates, shakitty.
ps. listen to THE POLO CLUB- alone running home.
Friday, October 3, 2008
the pilot
hello blogs!!
it is shakitty here, forming a new place for her thoughts, as she feels the need to somehow preserve all the memories and emotions of her life however small or big the occurence.
let's talk about where i have been in the past week.
sunday: yfc meeting
monday: bondi
tuesday: parramatta
wednesday: home
thursday: cabramatta
friday: home
sure, this seems like a wonderful adventure but it feels like something is missing. i think i may be missing people in my life. i wanna go to the phils and spend time with my family, i want another sector cuz more ppl are always more fun and right now my greatest wish is for this year to end. it started in a mediocre high, with a melbourne trip on january. february came and as fate would have it, the CFC split meant i had to befriend people i had no idea ever existed.
as march arrived i met someone who became a close friend. i secretly hoped that something more would happen because i felt so comfortable. as april arrived my birthday followed suit. the funnest, most awesome 16th birthday ever. with that certain friend there. may was the usual boring hangover from april. but as june came things began to spice up and a possible time to spend alone with this friend became possible. it never happened. july was the most fantastic high i have ever felt with WYD arriving on our shores. but then things began to go downhill from there and right now i'm almost falling into the water at the bottom of the hill.
because it is the school holidays i am free from any schoolwork or possible stress. however that is not the case with the YFC camp happening tomorrow. i really should have planned it better, ironed things out so they stayed in place, but like the awful dressmaker i am at the moment, i failed to do this. i am leading the camp. now it sounds so simple but backstage it feels like a fashion show, where all my models have run away. sounds disastrous? because it is.
right now, i may act as if everything is perfectly fine, but it isn't. my insides are freaking out as if they are about to have a nervous breakdown. but i am attempting to forgo this, because i need to be stronger than what i think i am.
another very minor minor minor disaster happening in my life is my laptop's internet has decided to abandon me and i am forced to use the laggy family computer. and this computer has no indie music. even worse. and no downloading features so i am unable to retrieve fresh new music. this sux.
but hopefully like the rollercoaster in our lives, my car will go uphill soon. i'll keep blogging, just to show the evidence in the future.
tacos, shakitty.
it is shakitty here, forming a new place for her thoughts, as she feels the need to somehow preserve all the memories and emotions of her life however small or big the occurence.
let's talk about where i have been in the past week.
sunday: yfc meeting
monday: bondi
tuesday: parramatta
wednesday: home
thursday: cabramatta
friday: home
sure, this seems like a wonderful adventure but it feels like something is missing. i think i may be missing people in my life. i wanna go to the phils and spend time with my family, i want another sector cuz more ppl are always more fun and right now my greatest wish is for this year to end. it started in a mediocre high, with a melbourne trip on january. february came and as fate would have it, the CFC split meant i had to befriend people i had no idea ever existed.
as march arrived i met someone who became a close friend. i secretly hoped that something more would happen because i felt so comfortable. as april arrived my birthday followed suit. the funnest, most awesome 16th birthday ever. with that certain friend there. may was the usual boring hangover from april. but as june came things began to spice up and a possible time to spend alone with this friend became possible. it never happened. july was the most fantastic high i have ever felt with WYD arriving on our shores. but then things began to go downhill from there and right now i'm almost falling into the water at the bottom of the hill.
because it is the school holidays i am free from any schoolwork or possible stress. however that is not the case with the YFC camp happening tomorrow. i really should have planned it better, ironed things out so they stayed in place, but like the awful dressmaker i am at the moment, i failed to do this. i am leading the camp. now it sounds so simple but backstage it feels like a fashion show, where all my models have run away. sounds disastrous? because it is.
right now, i may act as if everything is perfectly fine, but it isn't. my insides are freaking out as if they are about to have a nervous breakdown. but i am attempting to forgo this, because i need to be stronger than what i think i am.
another very minor minor minor disaster happening in my life is my laptop's internet has decided to abandon me and i am forced to use the laggy family computer. and this computer has no indie music. even worse. and no downloading features so i am unable to retrieve fresh new music. this sux.
but hopefully like the rollercoaster in our lives, my car will go uphill soon. i'll keep blogging, just to show the evidence in the future.
tacos, shakitty.
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