the pilot

hello blogs!!

it is shakitty here, forming a new place for her thoughts, as she feels the need to somehow preserve all the memories and emotions of her life however small or big the occurence.

let's talk about where i have been in the past week.

sunday: yfc meeting
monday: bondi
tuesday: parramatta
wednesday: home
thursday: cabramatta
friday: home

sure, this seems like a wonderful adventure but it feels like something is missing. i think i may be missing people in my life. i wanna go to the phils and spend time with my family, i want another sector cuz more ppl are always more fun and right now my greatest wish is for this year to end. it started in a mediocre high, with a melbourne trip on january. february came and as fate would have it, the CFC split meant i had to befriend people i had no idea ever existed.

as march arrived i met someone who became a close friend. i secretly hoped that something more would happen because i felt so comfortable. as april arrived my birthday followed suit. the funnest, most awesome 16th birthday ever. with that certain friend there. may was the usual boring hangover from april. but as june came things began to spice up and a possible time to spend alone with this friend became possible. it never happened. july was the most fantastic high i have ever felt with WYD arriving on our shores. but then things began to go downhill from there and right now i'm almost falling into the water at the bottom of the hill.

because it is the school holidays i am free from any schoolwork or possible stress. however that is not the case with the YFC camp happening tomorrow. i really should have planned it better, ironed things out so they stayed in place, but like the awful dressmaker i am at the moment, i failed to do this. i am leading the camp. now it sounds so simple but backstage it feels like a fashion show, where all my models have run away. sounds disastrous? because it is.

right now, i may act as if everything is perfectly fine, but it isn't. my insides are freaking out as if they are about to have a nervous breakdown. but i am attempting to forgo this, because i need to be stronger than what i think i am.

another very minor minor minor disaster happening in my life is my laptop's internet has decided to abandon me and i am forced to use the laggy family computer. and this computer has no indie music. even worse. and no downloading features so i am unable to retrieve fresh new music. this sux.

but hopefully like the rollercoaster in our lives, my car will go uphill soon. i'll keep blogging, just to show the evidence in the future.

tacos, shakitty.